So I've been active a lot on deviant art lately. I have to say that I love it. I've been getting 'favourited' and have had a lot of Doofenshmirtz related pages add my art to them. Now I know that I shouldn't be flattered because there's tons of people on deviant art and those groups will add anything to them, but I still am flattered. I do think it ( Read more... )

So time has passed, I went crazy, started seeing a psychologist, got the flu, and now feel like my life is way more on track than it has been for years. I've been looking for other jobs, trying to find a way to work hand in hand with nature. Right now organic farms and Appalachian rail upkeep seem like good leads. I've been applying to jobs like it ( Read more... )

God, yesterday was a blast! I went down to Columbus and chilled with some of my friends that I hadn't seen in a long time. We did some urban exploration, got take out Chinese, and went to an amazing club. I really like the place we went to. It's called Club Diversity, and it was just so inviting, fun, and my god are the drinks strong. I stuck to my ( Read more... )

Is it unusual to reminisce? I think not. I look back at my days passed and remember them through rose colored glasses.

I look back at college and remember the fun with friends, the chats with my minister friend, and many shenanigans. I forget about the hours filled with no sleep, the time crying over the fact that I was grown up and had to figure ( Read more... )

Today's been bumming me out. Last night my friend's father left everyone thinking he was going to kill himself. While I slept, I dreamed about this guy named Ryan, a mentally and physically handicapped annoying customer from an old job, who was harassing me and violating my personal space. I awoke to a rainy day. I usually love rainy days but I ( Read more... )

Wow, life just seemed to calm down. I am relaxed, mellow, and at ease. I don't know if it's because I have some temporary privacy, a part-time job, the knowledge that I could afford an apartment with way less than I thought, or because I spent some time in the woods by a creek playing chords and a lick on my guitar. He's finally named too, my ( Read more... )

Urgh! My life once again is taken by surprise by Americorps, those bastards. I was emailed about a possible job that related to my Americorps online application. Well I had an hour long interview and I need to make a decision in 2 days. >:( I hate these deadlines. But atleast now I understand the saying a bird in the hand is worth two in the bush. ( Read more... )

Last night I cried.

I cried because it felt like no one understands, because I felt worthless, because the world isn't what I want it to be anymore, and because I could call no one since I didn't want to hear them tell me what to do. I didn't take the only job that's been hopeful because I couldn't find a place to live. I've had to tell people over ( Read more... )

So it's been a very weird week or two. I feel like I've just started to wake up from  weird alternate reality. I started out by going to a nearby city to look for jobs. Never did I think that things would get so crazy. I was staying at an old friend's apartment. On the second day things went bad between her husband and me. He got mad and upset me, ( Read more... )

Today is a horrible day and good to some degree too. First, I went to a Starbucks that said they were hiring just to find out they're a bunch of fucking liers. Either they lied or the manager lied but either way they pissed me off. So I drink my coffee, scream to Meatloaf, scream to the Butthole Suffers, and then try to calm down by "smoking" with ( Read more... )